A week both sweet and bitter

I’m exhausted from the week that was but thought I should check in with everyone just to let you know how everything’s been.

It was seven days of both sweet and bitter.

Sunday November 2nd –  I attended my first literary festival event as a panelist. I was euphoric seated between two world famous award winning writers. I came back to earth with a bump at the book signing later, when my line emptied in about six minutes and theirs stretched for a good twenty minutes more.

Monday – My editor and I heard that we’d been invited to an event to pitch As the Heart Bones Break to some movie producers. That was the up. The down was an email from my cousin that his dear mother, who’d been taken off dialysis a few days before, would be coming home and receiving last visits. That evening, Heart Guy and I felt our heart bones crack a little as we went to sit with her and watched her drift in and out of consciousness.

Tuesday – I was buoyed by all your messages wishing me luck for the movie pitch.  By evening I was on pins and needles with anticipation.Not five minutes into the event, though, I realized that it would cost an enormous amount to transform Heart Bones into film. While folks were interested, money was an issue, a big issue. I got 2 leads but went home sober.

Wednesday – My aunt died. It was a blurry kind of day.  I have a vague memory of going to prayer service that evening with Heart Guy and then sitting with my cousins and their children at the wake. I collapsed into bed spent.

Thursday – Went to a Publishing Symposium and met a NYC editor from Harper Collins who said my agent could call her. I should have been ecstatic with the connection. But, on that day, securing a publishing contract didn’t seem important at all.  Family, friends, a simple woman who’d led a good life then left us, that was what seemed real.  What I remember about Thursday was being back at church again in the evening, praying and being with family and remembering my aunt.

Friday – Another half day at the Publishing Symposium to support a writer who’d been my mentor, then off to the church for the funeral in the afternoon. I held my mother, who was recovering from a series of strokes, as she sobbed and sobbed. I supported her as we followed the casket up a slope into the church for the last service. Then it was back home to wait for a dear friend from Australia who was coming in to Singapore specially for the launch and a very rushed night at the performance of another writer friend’s poetry.

Saturday –  As the Heart Bones Break sold out after the first public reading 😉 We had a great launch party. Afterwards I ran back to church to attend rehearsals for Youngest’s confirmation. It should have been my cousin attending as he was the sponsor. But, he had to be at the crematorium to pick up his mother’s ashes ;(

Tears amidst laughter, sorrow amidst joy. I guess that’s life. But it’s been a bit more eventful than I’m used to, so it’s a hot shower and a hot cup of tea and then to bed.

Until next week.

18 Responses to “A week both sweet and bitter”
  1. Ju-Lyn Tan says:

    What a week!
    Thank you for being there for us, even with all the many commitments you had.
    We truly appreciate your presence.

    And yay! for your achievements this week!

  2. Oh, Audrey, My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry about your aunt.

    I have my fingers crossed that Harper-Collins works out, and becomes your US publisher.

    • Audrey Chin says:

      Ann… I’ve left this book to a Greater Power and It’s wisdom, It will go where it needs to go. There have been a huge number of synchronicities which suggest that it will find it’s way – the chance meeting with the Harper Collins editor, my Australian friend making it to the launch and promising to help with the Australian marketing, even the pitch to the movie makers …. There’s a nice flow to the energy.

  3. Jay Warner says:

    It’s like an entire microcosm in seven days. Birth (of a novel) death (of a loved one) and everything in between. May your next week be calm and reflective.

    • Audrey Chin says:

      It is isn’t it Jay? I’m trying to spend about an hour a day just doing quiet things like walking and meditating this week. And also to go back to writing on the new WIP.

      How’s your writing going?

  4. Marianne Vest says:

    Even your quick summary of an energy zapping week or two in your life is well written. I hope things settle down a little.

  5. I’m so sorry for your family’s loss.

    Heart Bones would make an incredible movie, but I hope it becomes a best seller first.

    • Audrey Chin says:

      Yes Kathleen. First things first. Thanks for the reminder.
      I did get a place to speak in Charlottesville at the Virginia Writers Festival.
      How far is that from where you live?

  6. My heart goes out to you Audrey, nothing harder than saying goodbye to the ones we love, wishing you a peaceful happy week ahead. I am going to order my book this week from my local book shop Im excited for your future and I am sure your Aunty would be very proud of you as all your family must be.

    • Audrey Chin says:

      Thank you Kath.

      I didn’t know my aunt very well as she was from the “older” generation but her son and daughter in law are my Youngest’s godparents and we share a love of words and spirit. It has been difficult seeing how hard it was for them.

  7. Mirel says:

    Doesn’t that seem to be the way of life- joy and sadness so often intertwined? I wish you more of the former with less of the latter. May the new week only bring you comfort and good tidings.


  8. christhy77 says:

    Just read this and felt your loss and joy at the same time. Thanks for sharing your private feelings. Like what others have said, even this writing has encouraged people. You are becoming more red definitely.

  9. clara54 says:

    Should have visited your site sooner. I’m sorry to hear about your personal loss and suffering of family. I am happy to hear the good news about Heart Bones. I’ve always felt an intuitive knowing since reading your work:) and you are so deserving.

    Peace & blessings

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